Screw FML. MLIF–My Life is Fab (thanks A. Benton)
SInce Sunday my days have been absolutely fabulous!
The Porn Star and I had a a great day on Sunday. We spent the entire day together. We watched football, went out to eat and out to a movie. We went back to his place and watched some more football that he recorded so we wouldn’t miss it. I spent about 19 hours with him. As I was driving back to Bloomington I felt like I had real feelings for him. We actually had some serious conversations and got to know each other beyond just superficial things. It was quite lovely actually.
Monday came around and it should have been my first day of class but I decided to drop one course. It was the best thing I could have done for myself. I feel less stress. I have more free time. Now I only have class on Tuesday and Wednesday. WOot!
I know I know I was dreading classes starting but now that they have I am totally pumped! Well, I’m pumped for one class. Its my education policy class. I knew the majority of the students would be PhD students. When I got to the class I quickly discovered that I was the only non-PhD candidate. I was intimidated. I felt like I was 3 inches tall.
We went around the room introducing ourselves and our interest in education policy. I was close to the end but the entire time I was rehearsing what I was going to say. When it was my turn I nailed it! I even used my deep voice that makes me sound more serious and educated.
The professor went on explaining the class and described it as “an advanced PhD course.” She also added that it is the toughest class she teaches. *gulp*
I started to question whether or not I should be in the class and whether or not I was even allowed to be in that class as a first year Masters student. As the professor went over the syllabus I was falling deeper and deeper in love with the course. I knew it would be challenging but I wanted to be there so bad!
I asked to talk to the professor after class. I told her about my concerns and she assured me that other master students have taken the course and done well. She asked about my interest and we I told her about my interest and experience working with and studying student access, at-risk students, and secondary education.
At the end of our conversation she told me not to worry about being a masters student in that class. She said the only difference she has noticed between PhD and Master students is short term goals. Master students are eager to enter the job market. I told her I wanted to go on and get my PhD in Education policy after I finished my program. That’s when she said the thing I had been needing to hear “Oh I can tell. You are definitely PhD bound.” WOOT WOOT!
I am absolutely pumped for this class. I feel like I will finally be challenged and be studying something I am passionate about in grad school. Which is the reason I wanted to go to graduate school. I also feel like I will be learning real things and not a bunch of fluff or commonsense stuff.
Oh! I’ve also started working out again. Those endorphins have been doing wonders! I’m also exhausted but it has been making me get on a healthier sleep schedule.
I went in and got my thyroid medication figured out and have a new prescription. I’m trying to do better about my health. That includes eating and sleeping well and I’m going to try to keep that going even when classes start getting hectic. So loved ones this is when you come in–if you see me online at 3AM EST tell me to go to bed.
Last semester I had more all nighters than I did in my four years at Pacific. No wonder I was so burnt out.
I had my first small staff meeting with my kiddies today. It went well. I’m good at what I do and they like me which makes my job easier.
Things are great right now. Yes I still miss those on the other side of the Mississippi but I am not hating Freakin’ Indiana right now.
Life is good. I’ll drink to that. CHEERS!