Half Full

How can it be that the most stressful, busy, emotional, frustrating, scary, and overwhelming time of my life (so far) is also the time in my life where I am the happiest?

I am seriously burnt out. 

I am struggling to stay on top of things and have seen my work slipping. 

I can’t seem to remember things. I am pretty sure that is because of the lack of sleep I have been getting. Apparently, these last three and half years of staying up late to finish everything is not longer working. But there seriously isn’t enough time in the day to do it all.

I just have to thank God for putting the people in my life that are around right now. They are exactly what I need to keep me going. 

Even though life isn’t easy right now it is good. 

This is the first year in college that i have been without a significant other and yet I feel more loved, receive more affection, and value my relationship more than I have ever experienced. 

I am happy with who I am and more thankful than I could ever express for my family and friends. 

This next month is not going to be easy by any means. I do not expect to get any more sleep except for the random days where I do get to sleep in. 

I have cried more in these past few weeks than I have in a while. Those tears have been from feeling overwhelmed and stressed, and yes i do expect to shed some more of those tears until the end of May. 

Then those tears will be sad tears because it will be a good bye to some of the people who have played a significant role  in me getting to where I am today–both as a student and a human being.