A Year Revisited

I’m still not ready to go back and talk about this last year, So I’ll let my blog do it for me. Here are a few (okay a lot–I got a little carried away. But on the ones with more than one you can just read the BOLD post.) of post from this last year [...]

Protected: Did Not See That Coming

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LOL

I’ve had a really quiet morning today. Which only leaves my mind to wander and think of a million and one things. Most of those thoughts crack me up and make me laugh out loud. I’m not sure why but I’m not complaining. I’m home alone and laughing by myself at myself.
I still think about [...]

What I Got, What I Want

The past three years I’ve been in two serious relationships. Guy #1, I dated for one day short of two years. Guy #2 I started dating three days after I broke up with Guy #1. It wasn’t a rebound, it should have ended a long time ago. I knew that but I just couldn’t be [...]

Losing A Whole Year

Being back at Pacific has been a less than easy experience. First it was dealing with the memories of Jared haunting me. I’ve gotten past that point but now I’m dealing with the consequences of my decisions last year. 
I’m not blaming Jared for any of it because I chose to spend time with him rather [...]

Words I’ll Never Say

Yes you do have the right to be tired and fed up but you should also realized that I am not the reason you are that way. You were that way when we were dating and you are still that way. If you need someone to blame, go ahead I’m strong enough to handle it, [...]

E-mail makes it easier

I sent it. I wish I would have said more. But I need to move on. I don’t have feelings for him anymore. The only feeling I associate with him now is anger, sometimes disgust. I’m not sure if those feelings are directed at him. Sometimes I’m convinced they are really about me.
I get [...]

For Anyone Who Cares

The beginning of this semester was full of ups and downs. But for the most part life is pretty much a steady rise up again.
Zach and I broke up, that was hard but it was time and hey I survived. Jared and I have been dating for a while and for anyone who ever heard [...]

Starts with Goodbye

I was sitting on my doorstep,
I hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand,
But I knew I had to do it,
And he wouldn’t understand,
So hard to see myself without him,
I felt a piece of my heart break,
But when you’re standing at a crossroad,
There’s a choice you gotta make.
I guess it’s gonna have [...]